Life is interesting. Life is beautiful. Life is chaos. Everyday is a new adventure. You can either make the best of it or be unhappy. I’m finally really learning this. Let’s get serious now. I was never really, really happy.. Until about 5 years ago when my husband and I reconnected.. That was a changing point in my life. He was always my favorite person, the man I knew I wanted to be with forever. We just took different paths for awhile. It was bittersweet at the time we got together because my dad had died that year and my mom was in a nursing home with severe dementia. I only wanted my parents to see how happy I was and that wouldn’t happen. My mom died a few months before my wedding. On top of that my best friends mom who I called my momma died 5 days before my big day. Trying to plan a wedding when your grieving people who should be there is tough, really tough. I felt terrible but I felt worse for my little sisters. My youngest sister lost her dad at 10 and my middle sister lost her mom at 17. I felt bad for having so much time with them when they wouldn’t get the chance. It’s been a long road and some days I can’t believe I make it through. It’s because of the support I have that I make it. Without my people I wouldn’t know what to do with my life. Some days it’s hard to breathe but I’m trying my best to get my life together and fix my mind and body. I’m getting there but will always be missing a few parts of my heart. I guess I needed to get that off my chest finally. It’s hard carrying all the weight on my shoulders.